Today is the day that I remind myself exactly what I screwed up, and how much I screwed up, and what could be happening today instead of what is.
Because I let my own emotions get away with me.
I let my lizard brain take over, screaming fear and anxiety and fear for weeks at a time. And I couldn't hear or comprehend anything else.
I will not let that happen again.
Even if it doesn't fix anything now.
Today is a day of penance.
[Edit for clarity of intent: After penance comes forgiveness. At least for yourself.]